Ok ... since me and the boyfriend broke up, life has been crazy. First, the boyfriend HASN'T moved out yet. Still waiting on his new apartment to get ready. Second, I think all the men in my life are conspiring against me. They are literally trying to kill me or give me an ulcer. Kevin wants to open a business together...REALLY???? Four years ago after I leave town he tries to hook up with 2 of my friends and now he tells me that "he wishes that we'd have been together back then". What the hell do I do with that?
Jonathan wants a random hook up. Which normally I am all for, but not right now. My boredom level hasn't gotten up that high yet.
Isaac...where do I start on Isaac? When I left his house a few weeks ago, my stomach was in knots. I wanted a relationship. I wanted him to beg me to stay or tell me he wanted to see me soon. But no, he won't admit anything. I get such conflicted signals from him. So I ask him flat out..would things be different if we lived closer together? His answer "never know." You know, normally I would take that as No, but I can't completely be this off about him. I am a realist. Not some romantically ill girl who sees potential in everything. But I do like him and I can't be this wrong. But I am not going to chase him. He wants me, he knows where I am.
And lastly this brings me to my major problem. Last night I was minding my own business, having a semi peaceful night. And pop, the messenger shows up. Rocky...SERIOUSLY?????
Talking all that bullshit. Telling me that the difference between me and his "twenty year old miss perfect" girlfriend is the fact that I'm a better kisser. I can promise you that's not our only difference. But I didn't say anything. I let him promise me that he was coming to see me in June and this time he's serious. I can't handle another disappointment from him. I had just gotten over the thing at Christmas. I am tired of coming in 2nd. So once again...I ain't chasing him.
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